I really hate that I love you. I wish I didn’t care so I could walk away from this. Walk away and maybe you’ll miss me, maybe you’ll have to show a little effort like it took in the beginning when you were trying to win me. Maybe from the absence of me you’ll finally see all the time I deserve so you can have the best of me. Maybe you’ll realize you miss nothing more than holding me and my embrace was the warmest you’ll ever be. See I’ve never loved someone enough to show them all of me so I’m sorry for showing you all of these insecurities, I used to hide them so well but it’s so hard not to be myself and now that I’ve met you I can’t ever picture myself, with anyone else. And yes it’s the little things they get to me, like when you grab my hand on the way home, or kissing me like you mean it not only when were alone, so forget about the bigger things, because know that no amount of money could ever bring me joy unless it’s a ring. And I know that this sounds crazy because we’re young and lazy, have the whole world in front of us but yet we just sit and count the daisies. And I know sometimes I push you too hard and remind you daily that all of this potential is what really drove me crazy. I fell in love with the man I know you can be, even though I love who you are, because I also know your flaws, your bruises and your scars but the man you’ll be is who has my heart because I know more than anything you’re the one I wanna be with til death do us part. And yes I hate that I love you and this is a poem about the start. How we need to remember what in the beginning ever ignited that spark. And I know I said I wish I could walk away but if you haven’t realized its only to see if you’ll fight for me to stay. So I’m sorry I keep pushing you away everyday with all the stupid things I say, that you break down these walls…. I pray, I pray.
Beware of breaking the heart of a honest poet, they show no pity or have shame in admitting they lost in a love game and they don’t give aliases or change names.
I would like to go to the Grotta Palazzese in Puglia, Italy.
“Tucked inside a limestone cavern, this summer-only spot (open May through October) has hosted elegant dinners since the 18th century, when Italian nobility held banquets in the space.” - Conde` Nast Traveler